what's your personal DNA

This is a really cool test where you can assess your personality. So far the results are quite accurate. I would say 85% of it are really accurate. I don't really agree on me sitting on the low end on empathy. I just feel that you should know when and to whom you show empathy. Empathizing to any Tom, Dick and Harry just would'nt do for me. I can put myself in other people's shoes and understand how they feel but when I act upon it I would only choose to whom i'm empathizing to and when. anyway.. here's the result. You may assess my results too to see whether you agree with me....

My Personal Dna Report

You are a Director

• As a DIRECTOR, you combine an unusual openness and passion for beauty and style with confidence and a down-to-earth sensibility that allow you to realize your vision.
• You are practical and pay attention to the details that others tend to miss.
• By focusing on what is real and concrete, you achieve more than those who always have their heads in the clouds.
• When it comes to what really matters in your life, you are confident in your ability to succeed.
• Having beautiful things in your life gives you pleasure and satisfaction - you have a keen eye for style.
• Even when problems present themselves, deep down you know you will overcome these challenges.
• When routines get too familiar, you become bored and start looking for ways to spice things up.
• You are open to new types of experiences – you are not afraid to take a risk on something new.
• You have a highly developed sense of taste – you know what looks good on you, in your home, and in the world at large.
• Your independent streak allows you to make decisions efficiently and to trust your instincts
• You tend to do things on the spur of the moment, not sticking to a set schedule.
• You have a strong sense of style and value your personal presentation - friends may even seek your style advice from time to time.
• Generally, you believe that you control your life, and that external forces only play a limited role in determining what happens to you.

If you want to be different:

Occasionally let yourself dream a little more, even if it doesn't seem practical or efficient.

how you relate to others
You are Animated

• You are outgoing, comfortable with others, and up for anything, which makes you ANIMATED.
• Some people find crowds and parties exhausting, but not you! You are able to be yourself in many situations.
• Sometimes it is hard for you to understand why others feel the way they do, but that doesn't stop you from trusting them or having faith that they are good people.
• You know the world is complicated and that there is often more than one side to a story, so you are careful not to make judgments about others too hastily.
• You would rather experience the world than sit back and observe it—you are not one to sit on the sidelines.
• You are an independent thinker and don't get too worried about how others might perceive you—you are not self-conscious about being the active, engaged person that you are.
• Although you have a keen understanding of different people's life circumstances, you occasionally have trouble seeing why people get so upset and emotional about things—they should just lighten up and have fun!
• In addition to having faith in the world, you have faith in the people around you—you trust others to do the right thing and to be honest.
• Your independent streak allows you to make decisions efficiently and to trust your instincts
• You tend to do things on the spur of the moment, not sticking to a set schedule.
• You have a strong sense of style and value your personal presentation - friends may even seek your style advice from time to time.
• Generally, you believe that you control your life, and that external forces only play a limited role in determining what happens to you.

If you want to be different:

• Remember that time alone can be just as fulfilling as time spent with others—take some time for yourself and you might find that there are many things in your inner world that are just as compelling as the world outside your window.
• Your open-mindedness about the ways of world gives you an understanding of people's differences, but that knowledge doesn't always translate into sympathy. Don't be afraid to let your trust and understanding influence your feelings.

Someway or other, I'm still feeling weird about what's going on with me. On a positive note, I had a great workout because of what I'm experiencing. I'm like projecting my emotions by having a so called strenous long run on the treadmill. I felt better after that but now I'm feeling it again. fuckadoids.... I'm always making self feel worst when situations are already at its worst. If that last sentence make sense la..

So you see you and me
We're gettin close to the danger zone
Show me how tell me now
Should I stay or should i go
Cause I'm caught between yes and no
.........
Cause when you kiss me
I feel everything that I been missing
I try to slow down but my heart wont listen
And its tearin me all up inside
And when you touch me
I feel a rush but I'm afraid that it might crush me
Should I put my trust in somethin I dont trust in
I try to run but theres no place to hide
Cause baby kisses dont lie
~Kisses Don't Lie - Rihanna

Everyone is so fucked up in their own ways
We are all confused in our own ways too....

Jauh jarak ku tempuh/Untuk cintaku/Melumuri seluruh/Resah didiri/Kubenci namun ku rindu/Dalam lamunku/Slalu ada wajahmu/Menghiasi dinding hati/Kau dalam hatiku/Hanya engkau walau bukanlah kau yang pertama/Yang pernah singgah, dihatiku, namun kumau/Dan kau bila hatimu sepertinya/sama dengan hatiku paling tidak/Bisakah berdua selamanya/kau dan aku
~Paling Tidak, Melly Goeslow

I'm glad I didn't....

... go clubbing. Our plan to go clubbing was cancelled last minute. My poor girlfriend had a row with her father and was not allowed to go out and a few friends backed up last minute. It just didn't happen. I was so ready to get drunk last night. *shrugs shoulders.* Okay, so back to my girl.... I feel for her so much that I want to help with her problems but I don't really know where to start. Sweetie, if you read this, you know I love you and you know i'd be there for you when you need me okay. So, just holler whenever you need help.

Apparently, a screwed up plans can turn out into a good night. A quality night, spent one on one with different friends. I love days like these when I could just sit down with a friend and share everything with them. It's like you get to know somebody better that way. I'm not saying that hanging out with a group of friends is not fun but when it comes to a bunch of people, you divide you concentration to the amount of people you hang out with BUT when it's two people, your attention is directed to that ONE person. This way you get maximum impact of getting to know the person better.

So I first spent my evening with Ronz, hanging out in Segas, Gurney. We had a drink or two, and talked about old times and our future, upcoming plans and whatnots. Then we went up to the arcade and played Time Crisis 2. I had so much fun with him cause it's been so long since I actually get to do this - me and him, playing video games and actually finishing the whole Time Crisis 2. We played a few games and decided to meet up with Meng in Nets.

While I was in Netz, Capes and Becky came and so all of us, including Meng, Ronz, Boy and his girl went yum cha. We indulged ourselves with stupid Singh jokes and jokes about pedophiles and shit like that, where all of a sudden our Queen Becky decides that we should go for Rojak. And me being a food lover, could not resist that idea but apparently the boys didnt want to go cause they want to go SWATing. So because of that, Becky became the second person I spent my night with. We drove to Padang Kota Lama to satisfy our cravings for rojak. I haven't seen Becky for weeks and we catch up on her new job as an HR Manager, my breaking up, relationships and travelling. We drove back to Giga after that and that's where I met Boon whom I haven't seen since last week.

So the poor guy just finished his 11am shift. The workaholic apparently is juggling OTs again. Crazy bastard! Obviously, as usual, if he finishes his work at 11 pm, chances are he haven't eaten his dinner yet. So, since everyone else is so into their SWAT, I teman-ed him makan in Jamal. I love Boon. I really do. I love spending time with him cause he's such an interesting person. When we get together, we always have something to talk about, we never run out of topic to talk about. Last night's rendezvous seemed to be a little more of a serious and personal talk thingy. Where we talk about our past relationships, the girl he's with now and my recent breakup and interest. I just learned that Boon's view in relationship is almost similar to mine. It's scary, we were basically like best friends. I have known Boon for almost 1 year now but I've always feel that I've known him more than that.

It's funny how the quality time I spent with my friends ended up with conversations on relationships. I tell you, can never end one... probably need to start a new entry talking about this. From my one on one time, I'm starting to get new ideas and views on a relationship. Anyway, that entry will come much later when I figured out what I really want to say.

Later that night, after suppering with Boon, the boys decided to go to Bukit Audio. So we drove up in three cars - road trip semacam je!. We wanted to go up so we can yum cha while looking at cars displaying their sound systems but apparently, we went up quite late and on the way up, we can see a lot of cars racing down hill. So, we ended up having supper in Bukit Audio. Damn! this small malay kopitiam serves mean koay-teow kung-fu. As usual, we had fun talking crap and enjoying each others company. Great weather too up there - well, at least it's great for me. It was foggy and it rained and the wind chill is as cold as Genting but I liked it. Overall I was a happy girl and now everything seems fine for me again cause sometimes, really, nothing beats the company and the laughter of your closest friends.

The never have so much pain when working out Day

MY BODY IS ACHING LIKE A MOFO. MY THUNDER THIGHS ARE ALL WEAK AND SHAKY. DAMN A.B.T CLASS KILLS YOUR MUSCLES - EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM!
Yes! you smart little girl-lah. Pandai-pandai go take all this happening classes after 1 year of no exercise. Very smart!

DAMN!Now I don't even know how I'm going clubbing with them heels later.
shit!
SHIT!
SHIT!
SHIT BE UPON ME!

A.B.T - Abs, Buttocks, Thighs

on a serious note - efforts to look good are always not easy. why?damn!

Condolonces to Roms on the demise of his grandmother. I'm sorry for what have happened dearie. I hope everything will be alright with you and I am sorry i did not have the chance to accompany you back to Ipoh to see your grandma. I'm sure she would be a nice lady. Huggies from me to you - it's for the better and she will no longer fell the pain no more.

I'm screwed! I'm screwed! I'm screwed! in like every possible ways, every phase of my life. Fuckadoids! I'm truly bored and I'm on my way to be a celebrity~ ya. A celebrity with them treadmills and personal trainers. Rock on baybeh!!!!!



It could all be so simple
But you'd rather make it hard
Loving you is like a battle
And we both end up with scars
Tell me, who I have to be
To get some reciprocity
No one loves you more than me
And no one ever will

No matter how I think we grow
You always seem to let me know
It ain't workin'
It ain't workin'
And when I try to walk away
You'd hurt yourself to make me stay
This is crazy
This is crazy

~lauryn hill's ex-factor